Sex & Disappointments

Where do we go from here? The society we live in today tells us we wouldn’t last. Relationships these days are doomed from the start. Too much jealousy & selfishness is going around. But we’re perfect for one another. In my opinion at least.. I see myself with you through the good & bad times. I see us creating & raising a wonderful family. Yet, I’m so lost.. I find myself talking to the moon & stars. Asking for just one wish.. Just to be happy. Happiness is something only you can bring on yourself & There’s not much of that anymore. Winter time, Spring time, Summer time, Fall & back to winter. It’s a cycle. We go from complete strangers, to friends, to lovers, to soul mates, to sex partners & back to complete strangers.. So why Do we say we “Love” one another? The word is so overused in my opinion. The crazy thing is, I do love you, Its just.. The way you are prohibits us from being together happily. & Still with that, I do not blame you. Maybe I should blame the people that influence you? Maybe I should blame myself for not giving enough effort in making you completely mine. See with all the other women it’s just a 4th grade crush kind of thing, but with You, It’s different. All I want is for you to be happy. You deserve it. I want to spend time with you as if you were a best friend, care for you as if you were my mother or sister, & Love you as if you were my soul mate. Every man has failed you in the past & I’m here to make sure that never happens again. So fuck the world we live in now. Let me make you happy & I promise you’ll never regret it.. But wait, If you’re wondering whom I’m speaking of? You’re not alone. Because I just made this amazing woman up in my head. She does have the characteristics of a wonderful female I know, But in reality this is all just a dream. To the love of my life, I’m waiting on you baby..